Who am I?

Hello to you!! I am thrilled that you have stumbled upon this site. I had no idea that I would ever complete anything remotely close to this. I mean, me, writing a blog? Well, here I am. A woman that is a score and 4 years away from her "golden" years, and the question still remains..... Who am I?

What I find amazing is that I could answer this question without hesitation at the age of 8, or at least I thought that I could answer the question. But, at 40, I retort to it. I believe that who I am has been more defined by what I became. What I mean is, I wasn't born a Mom but I became one, and found my definition being surrounded by that role. Now, it is certainly an honor being a Mother, but I have found myself wondering who I am as I have spent the last 21 years building 5 amazing people into who they are. Truthfully, I lost me along the way. If someone asked me anything about my children, I could give them an answer on all of them in 20 seconds flat. If I am asked about myself, there is a long 20 second delay before the confused face and ever so genius start to my sentence with "Ummmm." Shameful. Maybe I need to go back and visit that 8 year old girl. What would she say to me? Stay tuned, I think that she will speak through my writing.

I am inviting you into my head as I discover more about me. I don't believe that you can go through life, have experiences (great and not-so-great) and they not have some influence on who you become. Maybe we define ourselves differently as we become wiser. Who knows. But, I know that as I continue this life, I intend on answering and revising my answers. I guess for now, I am a woman that is breaking through my internal conflicts by fully exposing them with the world. And you are brave enough to join me!!